all grown up

it is about to be christmas break and i will be home for a month.  i didn't get to go home for thanksgiving break because we were still in season for volleyball so the last time i was home was the 7th of august.  it is always so nice to be home but every time i do go home it seems like something has changed.  i already know of one major change that has occurred since i was home last, and that is the fact that my older sister no longer lives at home.  she and two of her friends from high school moved into a house about four or five miles away.  it's weird because i am a junior in college and i still don't feel like an adult.  every semester i feel a little bit older, but i definitely do not  feel like i am twenty years old, or even close to that.  i never really saw my sister as an adult either but i'm guessing once i get home and realize that i am the only kid in the house it will be a completely different story.

christmas morning 1997

i just think it is interesting the steps you have to go through to consider someone, or even yourself, an adult.  i know that as long as i am living under my parent's roof i will never feel like an adult, no matter how old i am (hopefully i won't be too old and still living with them, yuck). i just remember when i was a teenager and i thought that the second i turned eighteen i would feel like an adult and have all sorts of freedom and independence.  i soon came to realize that age is just a number and that the higher that my personal number got i still didn't feel like an adult.  i still don't feel any closer to adulthood to this day.  i wonder when that moment will finally hit me.  for now, i guess i am still the baby of the family.  my parent's will probably always see me as that little guitar chick up above anyway.